wonders never cease

so gab was sick, and it was dengue nga. tsss. damn striped mosquitos. we brought her to the hospital earlier this week, where she was confined for a few days. i was her faithful achay... ready to run, jump, sit, stand, and swim (but not to wake up in the middle of the night. hehehe.) just to make her feel better. i never thought that being a bantay could be so fattening. gab didn't have much of an appetite, so i ended up eating all the food that was meant for her... about half a dozen country style donuts, goldilock's meat pies, chocolate cupcakes, mamon, butter cake, pizza, subway sandwiches, and chocolate malt balls. yeheeeeeeeeebah. oink oink. but i wasn't all just a useless pig, eating gab's leftovers. i got to do some reading -- YES! i'm finally done with harry potter 6. i cried like a baby. kakaiba. KAKAIBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. i heart dumbledore. *sniff* -- and also got to write a few film concepts and notes for my future project with reg (*wink*). so exciting! more importantly, i got to do some movie-watching on hbo... which kinda led me into thinking about things....

it started off with one of my absolute favorites, Love Actually. it was the scene where billy mack went to his manager's pad on christmas. his manager was confused as to what billy mack was doing at his place when billy was invited to elton john's rockin' christmas party... and it was then when he said the most cliche truth in the most un-cliche way...

Billy Mack: I realized that Christmas is the time to be
with the people you love.

Joe: Right.

Billy Mack: And I realized that as dire chance and
fateful cockup would have it, here I am, mid 50s, and without knowing it I've
gone and spent most of my adult life with a chubby employee. And much as it
grieves me to say it, it might be that the people I love is, in fact... you.
[pause]

Joe: Well, this is a surprise.

Billy Mack: Yeah...

Joe: Ten minutes at Elton John's and you're as gay as a
maypole.

ain't it great? it's so new for me... how this particular scene made me realize things about my own life... about the situation i was in. i know i had a pile-load of stuff to do, but i willingly and STRANGELY said yes to watch over my sister. (okay. so i kinda had no choice... but even if i did have one, my answer would've been the same.) this isn't to say what kind of a sister i am... that i'm all loving and crap. i'm actually a pain in the ass to my siblings sometimes. they rarely say it, but i'm "the different one" among us. i always got in trouble with my parents, never thought twice about how they'd get affected and was self-centered like anything. but that was before.

i dunno what happened... but i feel like things have changed. like... i care more about my family now than i ever have before. i worry about them when they're not feeling well... and i want to be there for them when they need me... or even when they don't need me. altho my parents or siblings may not agree with those things, i kind of don't care... so long as i continue to love them that way.

and then it hit me... this is EXACTLY how my family cares for me... willing to do everything for me... not caring whether i care they care... just as long as they know i'm well. i cried thinking about it... even ended up listing down every insane sacrifice my family made for me... which made me cry even more... and VERY happy. despite all the disagreements and clashes that get in the way of a peaceful home, i've come to realize how lucky my family is to be blessed with such security... that no matter what, we have one another to cling on to for love and support.

all this from a stupid dengue mosquito. wonders really never cease.