how to deal.... hmmmm.
it's been awesome with my iPod. can't believe i'm only appreciating this gadget now. it does a lot for me... you know... with the coping and shit. i can't drink naman kasi for eternity. i mean... i CAN... and i have been.... but i shouldn't. so i'm coming up with goals... HEALTHIER and more PRODUCTIVE goals... to keep me sane and mentally and physically intact. list to follow.
found videos from college the other day and gosh... i was so skinny. it's a goal to lose some weight and get fit... but everyone's saying i was too skinny back then (wish ko lang)... so maybe a size 4 will do. boxing anyone? :) pilates? haha.
hung out with elf and direk mae last night with the usual suspects. all i can say is that not only am i excited to shoot... i'm actually excited to WORK. there's a big difference there... hehe. it's gonna be bittersweet this time around, though. i'll be with a different team altogether kasi... and i've been so used to having giselle and my boys around for months... but i guess that's the challenge and the thing to look forward to din. it's been a while since i've been out of my comfort zone. i think this is what i need right now. enough of the shitty drama. right?
right.
i'm a bit scared, actually...? but all good. i'll do it like they do it on the discovery channel. haha. hell yeah i'll make work my rebound. :P
LOVE AFTER LOVE
The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.
—Derek Walcott
cheers, rain. you make my day rock.
ps. royce is in town. wohoooo!
